Being Real (part 2) . . .

I'm staring at the calendar, 1/20/09 - - 2009 - - - 3 LONG years!!! 2006 seems so long ago . . .

I really do not know how much more I can take . . . How long is long enough? I know I'm not going to publish this until some time in the future, but . . .

My heart is broken, My spirit is broken, My resolve is broken . . .

Should I just be satified with 1 child? Am I trying to force something that is obviously not meant to be? So many questions roll through my mind. Questions I thought I would never ask! My heart is breaking.

Is it time to stop . . . ?